Musing

Another January 1 Without You

It’s New Year’s Day again. The world feels loud… fireworks, resolutions, celebrations. But for me, this day is quieter now. It’s heavy. It’s your birthday, Nanay. And you’re not here. I’ve been thinking about you all month. December always brings…

Looking Back, Moving Forward

December always catches me off guard. It’s like you blink, and suddenly the year is over. All those plans and resolutions from January feel like a distant memory, buried under the weight of everything that’s happened in between. It’s funny…

When Love Is Silent, Does It Count?

Sometimes, I think back to the way I loved, and the question lingers: Did they know? Did they feel the care I carried for them, the quiet kind of love that I thought was enough? I didn’t shout it from…

The Quiet Way I Loved—and Lost

There’s a question I’ve been sitting with for a while now: Did I love wrong? It’s not something I say out loud. Not to friends, not to myself when the lights are off and it’s just me and the ceiling.…

Love Doesn’t Leave Enough

It’s just me now. Me and this silence I didn’t ask for, but here it is anyway. I’ve been thinking about how everything used to feel so easy… how we’d just talk, say whatever came to mind, no effort, no…

The Uncertainty That Follows

Sometimes, the hardest thing isn’t the goodbye. It’s everything that comes after. The silence. The things left unsaid. The space that used to be filled with laughter or quiet moments now echoes with questions. What happened? Why did it stop?…

Six Years

Today is my grandma’s death anniversary. It’s been six years, and I only know how many years exactly because earlier today, I scrolled through my dad’s Facebook, searching for that all-black profile picture he had put up back then. And…

Saudade

I feel unbearably lonely. Each day feels like it’s slipping away, with these fleeting moments when I reach out and find nothing but empty space. I find myself navigating through a world filled with people, yet there seems to be…